January 2012
74 posts
New Year's Resolution
On January 1, 2011, I wrote:
I don’t have a New Year’s Resolution this year. I’ve found that moments of spontaneity yield much better results than a list of generic goals that most people only follow for a couple months.
And while I’m not completely certain this mindset paved the path to one of the greatest years of my life to date, but I’m sure it helped.
I’m...
December 2011
55 posts
Looking back on old photographs, I see a happy, carefree, young girl. I want to wake up one day and look that happy again.
No more growing up.
2011: uncut
if you’re curious, i outlined my entire 2011 to the best of my remembrance.
there are no indiscretions made on my part, no details are spared. it is quite long and probably uninteresting to you, but these were the memories that made up my year.
january 1, 2011: ringing in the new year knocking back shots of tequila with my family. “happy new year xx, because i can’t kiss you...
rerrrr
why do i always do this to myself
I wish things were easy.
And that they’d move in a course that is predictable so at least I wouldn’t dwell on the uncertainty.
But that’s not the way the world works…
And my heart is going to pulse and get bruised and feel empty and run wild.
Maybe after all that’s said and done, and I’ve made it through, I’ll know — with little doubt — that everything was worth it.
“I want to know you moved and breathed in the same world with me.”
– F.Scott Fitzgerald (via thatkindofwoman, misswallflower)
foodpoisoning = boredom
Who are you dating? Nicholas Monroe :D
Who was the last person you took a picture with? Nick, at the aquarium yesterday. Do you have a younger sister? Yes, Jayme Lynn. Did anything “cute” happen today? Not really. I just kinda laid in bed all day. Who is the last person you said I love you to? The boyf before he left my house this morning. Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby? Yes. What...
blogsecret:
I’m scared to death of what it will be like without you in my life.
YAY!
Finished my Christmas shopping today. I don’t mind being broke if it means spoiling my favorites (not only with material things, but with gratitude and love). Surprisingly, this is the first year I’m getting my parents something for Christmas :)
Mom: a cute Mango lace dress that’s black with a royal blue contrast under.
Dad: a blue Alfani (his favorite brand) crew neck...
It still hurts.
And I feel like in the back of my mind, things are never going to be the same again.
inspirationalbullshit:
I have decided to go for a drive. I need to get away from this phone because it’s all I’m staring at right now. Wish me luck. For whatever it is I’m doing.
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I just want to go to sleep. Fuck.
/inadequacies
Sometimes I wish that I wasn’t the “charming” or “cute” or “intelligent” girl. I know that those are fantastic qualities to have — and I know full well that I am a capable woman and am received positively because of that — but a lot of the times I wonder how it be if my defining factor were my looks. Sometimes I wish I was that hot / sexy /...
“The best part of falling in love is the mystery and excitement of not knowing....”
– Gayle Hayes, Summer Solstice (via 500daysofkissingmypillow)
Final Reflections (pun intended?)
My mind is wracked from testing and studying (but ssssh, don’t tell people I only studied for like 5 hours last night) so in an effort to quell some antsy-ness that I am currently feeling, I will bullet some personal Reflections on finals week.
In high school, you can get by if you don’t read the required readings, you’ll still do just fine. In college, if you don’t read...
There is so much uncertainty that lies in the...
And I just have to trust God that He knows what’s best for me — even if they are unplanned and unexpected — because if He can bring me to it, He’ll definitely bring me through it.
The hardest part is trusting.
And not fearing what comes of my future.
